My mind runs away with many thoughts. It is working on overdrive, darting in and out in split seconds. Some thoughts are fleeting and I may not notice them. Some may linger longer and I am sucked into it, planning, thinking about them. I may not even realise that I am with a specific thought for far too long. My mind cannot be void, empty. So long as one thought ends, another thought fills the void. My mind stream cannot stop and I cannot stop it unless I am mindfully conscious about every single thought and redirect my mind into something else, such as watching the in-breath and out-breath. This is the biggest challenge and the hardest to achieve.
Therefore, I continue to be dragged along by thoughts and not knowing when I can move out of negative thoughts, e.g. thoughts of worries, anxieties, fears, anger, jealousies, unhappiness. If I dwell too long in these negative thoughts, it harms my mental health, and in a worst-case scenario it may lead to depression. If depression sets in, it is important that one has close friends or confidants to notice and to seek help for the sufferer.
I wonder how many people are stressed out of their minds that their thoughts are running overdrive without a breather to calm down? I went through a period of constant stress before I decided to resign from my last job. I realised back then that I must take back control of my life and my mind. The salary may be good, my position in the organisation may be good, but did I have the mental health to enjoy them?
One of my major obstacles is not being able to let go, take a back seat and leave the problem aside. Being obsessed with responsibilities and always thinking of others, got me in the bind. Things got better once I am retired. The problems related with office work are non-existent and that is a big chunk. However, my mind is habitual and it chooses other things to think about. The crux of the problem is still there if I continue to over-think.
Recognising I have the habit of thinking is the preliminary step to put my mental health in order. I have to seek advice to address my problem. This is work in progress and a big endeavour. I am not being prescriptive here as there are ways to address that suit different individuals. First recognise our mental health and act on addressing it.
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